What was I Thinking...

What was I thinking........?

that life’s gonna be like a cherry on a pie;

no worries, no tension and no one to question ‘why’;

that I’ll be smiling forever with no moments blue;

then hold on kid......you haven’t any clue.

What was I thinking........?

that parents and teachers are devils on earth-

their lessons and lectures aren’t any worth;

that I am ‘CEAT’- born tough;

then hold on kid......you haven’t met rough.

What was I thinking........?

that completing homework was my biggest task;

writing exams, which I wonder who asked;

that fights with friends were important issues;

then hold on kid.......you’ll be needing more tissues.

What was I thinking........?

when I was dreaming of a future so far;

missing out moments which were at par;

wanting desperately a life like a ‘movie star’

then hold on kid.......you’ll be needing a racing car.

Now that I have grown up, I realise how much I miss

those fun filled days, where not a worry did exist

travelling back in time, is what I wish

where life was at its extreme bliss.

But, what was I thinking........why in such hurry was I to grow up!!!!

Why in such hurry was I to join the ‘Big club’??

It’s been a long time since I have penned down my thoughts. Keya, a friend from my previous school always kept saying that I should not stop writing poems. But where is the time I kept wondering, life has become so hectic that we fail to create time to do what we love most. Then pops up this additional responsibility to write for the school blog- which people mostly would think as a burden, but I take it as an opportunity.

It was the last day, I completely forgot about the blog and I was running short of time- thousands of mental calculations, great dilemma- What should I write?? Out of nowhere this topic popped out- “What was I thinking….?”

It’s been over a decade, 12^th year exactly, I have been in this profession and I kept wondering- What is the reason?  Why am I in this profession? Why have  I not got bored yet? I guess its because, when I watch the kids playing and having fun, I get to relive my childhood.

‘Childhood ’- those golden days, I guess no one would deny that those were the days filled with happiness when we had no worries. But little did we know what future had in store for us. The only worry we had back then was when will we grow up. Now that we have grown, we know how much we have to struggle- busy planning and securing future and missing out on all the fun. I wish I could go down back in time, to relive those moments one more time.

-Laxmi Goyal